Littles and Mental Illness

[Mewow]

Thank you, ps if you find a tendancy to be overwhelmed by emotions, often pick up on others and are more sensitive to emotions as a whole research on "empaths" might help though like most things it's subjective to one's own opinion. But thank you for sharing, I was curious because though I don't take medication I do deal with depression and slight social anxiety.

I don't feel so alone in feeling "weird or not normal" (not that normal actually exists anyways) thank youuuu

[Little Mare]

i have:

an intellectual disability

hypothyroidism

anxiety

&

depression 

[HisuianLilligant]

I'm autistic, have social and general anxiety, major depression, and BPD-it's extremely hard to deal with and quite the struggle, I have medication/therapy/psychiatry that I've had my whole life in various forms but it's never helped :/

[ThePrincessMinMin]

Hallo...

I have social anxiety disorder, so it makes me extremely shy around people I don't know (more outgoing once I know people), soft spoken, very uncomfortable in crowded places without someone that I'm comfortable with, afraid of confrontation, and am self concoius of what others may think of me...

Its a challenge daily, but being little helps me cope.

[Zenmackie]

This may not be for everyone, but there have been a huge number of scientific studies over the years showing that practicing meditation - Transcendental Meditation in particular - can be of great help in dealing with various types of mental and emotional issues like anxiety, depression, OCD, BPD, PTSD, etc.  

 

It's amazing what a difference practicing a simple mental technique can make.  It's recommended by the American Medical Association, the American Psychological Association, The National Institutes of Health and many similar organizations.

 

Here's just one link, but by all means do your own research on this:  http://www.tm.org/reduced-stress-and-anxiety

[AllsonClover]

So I am a transgender. I have known I was for as long as I can remember. Before I even knew what a transgender was. Well I grew up in a pastors home and so I spent the first 16ish years of my life thinking I was going to hell and there was something really wrong with me and I had no idea what was wrong with me. Until I talked to another transgender. And then I understood and decided "If god wants to send me to hell for who I am, let him." But I was still messed up from the first 16ish years and so I still always have a fear in the back of my mind that I am going to go to hell. Even though I am not even sure I believe in it. And because my dad is a pastor we moved a LOT all my life. And I have social anxiety and so I am really bad at making friends. So I would have to move just when I was starting to make some friends. Over and over. And my Dad and I never really had a relationship. Not until I was 18ish. And he told me he was sorry for how our relationship was. But I always knew my mom and dad love me. It is just My dad is a Christian Conservative and I am a pagan((I think. I don't know?!?!)) independent liberal. And my dad is a social butterfly and I have social anxiety. So there are reasons we did not really have a good relationship. But I never had me "Daddy time" as a little kid. When I was 13 I was raped by a police officer. And so now being near one of them gives me panic attacks. I hate the fact that I am transgender. I cry all the time because of the body I have and how much it cost to change it. When I was 18 I decided that I was done with it all and took all the pills they had me on. And I just got all the scripts filled. Right before blacking out the last thought I had was "Wait. I don't want to die. I just don't want to be alive. That is not the same thing." And I passed out. My sisters boyfriend at the time found me in the bathroom floor and I woke up in a the ICU and they said they have no idea how I was a live. It turns out that I took at the very least 3 times the lethal dosage of 4 different meds. So am sent to a mental hospital for the second time. The first time my dad had me admitted to one because I was cutting myself. I started when I was 13 but they never knew because I cut my legs. But they found out when I was 16ish. Well the second time I was held for 3 weeks. And I can't do without music and noise and the ability to know I can leave where I am if I need to. So I was freaking out the entire time. After that I didn't care anymore and started cutting my wrist and got more into drugs. My drug use started when I was 15. I snapped my leg completely in half and the doctor gave me oxy 20's... at 15.... yeah. With in 3 days I was snorting them. But after I got out of the mental hospital the second time it was more than just pain killers. I got into blow, crack, smoked a LOT of weed. Drank a LOT. Was always snorting pain killers. I realized that when I was high I did not have to deal with all my mental problems. So I went about 2 and a half years where I was sober maybe 1 month all together. But I had no money. I was getting everything for free because my cousins ((both blood and non blood)) where pushing it and always had it. So we all hung out at K's house. Well one night we where sitting outside drinking. And we where all blown. And mu cousins are full on thugs. And have enemies. And I found this out that night. Some people drive bu and shoot at us. And I was so high I just sit there and could not even get my body to move.  A non blood cousin of mine ((very close friend)) got shot in his butt cheek. But no one else got shot. But that was my wake up call. So I got clean and had to start dealing with everything again. So I decided to go full on into RP. I was in Gorean RP. And I ended up getting a Mistress who I loved so much. She became my IRL Mistress. And my life had never been better. Well not too long ago she uncollard me. Blocked me on everything. I am still not 100% sure why. I mean, I messed up and she got mad at me for the first time ever. And so I got clingy because I was trying to make sure she was not mad at me anymore. And I think I was too clingy. I still can't fully process why. But after that my life fell apart because she was the only thing holding it together. I got back into drugs. Was blacking out on my Xanax. First time I woke up and my front door was open. My car door was open. There was blood on my new flats. And a massive dent in my car. And I don't remember anything. But, I did it again. and again. Because I wanted the pain to stop. I went through a month script of Xanax in less than a week. So then I turned to my Ambien. But I got suicidal again. And my friends all saw it. So they called the cops and I was taken in for a 72 hour physic hold. But the let me out the next day because the shrink said she thought I was stable again. And so there was no point to keep me any longer.  But we still talked for like 2 hours. Because she was so cool. That that was last week. But now I am doing well. My Mommy is the reason I went. I can talk my way out of going to the hospital. I know how to fake a smile and lie and say everything is fine. And seem stable when I am not. But my Mommy told me that I was not to do that. But now I am clean and not going to hurt myself and taking my meds and only as prescribed and nothing else. Because I love my Mommy and thoes are my rules and I will not brake them. And I am doing good!! I am in a good place!! It was strange being in the hospital when I was in little space though. I actually asked them if I could have a binkie. They said no =( All of it was strange. Because I was in little space the entire time. I have NEVER hurt myself or did any drugs or anything in little space before. I do not understand the past 2ish months of my life at all. But I am good now =) And I am slowly leaving little space. Even though I have my sippy cup right now. I need to be out of little space for in the morning. I have adulting to do. IDK if my story is inspirational at all. I hope so. Because I am going to stay okay from now on. I am never going down that road again. 

 

So the list of things they said I have. Major Depressive disorder, PTSD, Social Anxiety, Panic Disorder, Borderline personality disorder, and something that means I hate my own body.   

[Guest bubbles__]

I have PTSD, Anxiety disorders and depression. I don't think I've ever been fully into little space because of guilt and fear. Thank you for this kind post it makes me feel less alone c: Edited June 26, 2017 by kittenlolita

[Guest ParanoidAsylum]

I was initially diagnosed with high functioning autism, later called aspergers, I developed depression and anxiety in my later childhood and into adulthood, and while I am unsure I think I may have ptsd to some extent. I have a really difficult time trusting others because of past events, and I haven't been able to really go into little space much, or deep, due to fear, guilt and paranoia of getting hurt.

[Guest daddy's_little_shadow]

I have general and social anxiety as well as depression. It makes it hard to be Little sometimes, but I'm learning to deal with it. *hugs to everyone*!

[minahbird]

I'm a little, and I have anxiety and potentially depression (doctors keep changing their minds as to whether I do or not). I was bullied severely at school, and ended up with an eating disorder and social phobia. I've mostly recovered from the eating disorder, but still have the rest, particularly after being abused in my first relationship as well. I have a lot of trouble trusting people because of all that, and tend to either be afraid to approach people or overcompensate because I don't really know how to behave with people.

[Onceuponatime]

I`m dealing with generalized and social anxiety dissorder and also c-ptsd with dissassociative identity issues. Maybe it sounds weird but I`m glad to read that there are more people here like me, it feels a little less lonely now Big huggyy for everyone, never stop dreaming! Even if life knocks you down it doesn`t mean you have to be submissive to it.

[Guest daddysbunnygirl]

i have bpd (can deal with it now), currently dealing with generalized anxiety and it's been hard since the physical symptoms make it very difficult to do anything :/, used to have social anxiety but it has gotten a bit better over the years, and trauma from losing my mother.  i guess being little helps at times since i didn't have such a good childhood

i have a very supportive daddy who knows every single thing about me and has helped me get through some tough times, he loves me a lot and wants me to be happy, i'm so glad i have him

[KindaCuteBunny]

I'm sorry to hear that sweetie

 

My mother is schizophrenic and bipolar. The apple didn't fall far from the tree!

 

I've had therapy since I was twelve. I had behavioral problems and they diagnosed me with 'Aspergers'. Through the years, my previous therapist had retired and I had a new one. She was a lot better in my opinion. Had patience like a saint and could deal with me. She believed I had Aspergers as well, until she got to know me. Through more testing, she didn't believe I had Aspergers, but Schizotypal Personality Disorder. I didn't know much about it, as it isn't very 'well known' I guess... 

 

Either way, it was nice to get an answer from someone who seemingly cared and did more testing when it came to my mental well being. 

 

I have problems when it comes to others confronting me about not being truthful with my feelings (like my former daddy). When I was thirteen, I learned to mimic others' emotions, so I knew when the correct social response would be. Of course sometimes it would fall through.

 

I feel like I am rambling, but I will try and cut this off. 

 

Remember that not everybody is perfect. Jesus hung out with a prostitute, I mean... Come on xD

[Guest Little_Bunny_Princess]

Long list but here goes.

•D.I.D

•Autism

•Anxiety Dissorder

•Depression

•Panic Attacks

•PTSD

•C.A.S

•A.D.D

•O.C.D

Also clowns and spiders and some other stuffs scare me too. Little aged 2-8.

 

Keep strong all and hang in there x

[Guest Ukasianguy]

Thank you for this post, need more like it. I suffer from OCD, trust issues and used to have severe anxiety when i was younger which has got better over the years

[Quirkygrl16]

Definitely not alone. Bi polar,anxiety,depression and OCD here. Been having some rough weeks sadly. Anyone who ever needs to talk is welcome to message me. No judgment here ever ever.