well... this sucks....

[Lil' Miss Dolly]

So, Me and Dominus split up last night. Things have been rocky for a little while and they finally just came to a head. I feel isolated, depressed and kinda like I failed. You invest so much of yourself into something.... to essentially find out.. it isn't enough. 

 

I havent quite decided what to do just yet, I might step away from the boards for a while, I might continue to b a presence here, I might run away and join the circus... I hear Narnia is nice this time of year!  Decisions, Decisions. I can't talk about to other people, Most of our friends are mutual friends and I don't want to put them in an awkward spot or feel like they are caught in the middle. So my only place to safely decompress is here. 

 

I am not going to say I dunno what i am going to do without a Dom because I am perfectly capable of surviving without one but..... Its definitely going to suck for a while. Our relationship was pretty lengthy and took up a big chunk of my day to day life - Adjusting to the change in routine is going to be a process.

 

My dog is kind of a douchebag so maybe I'll use the extra time to train her better? *shrug* 

 

I obviously am not giving up on being Little, It's who I am... I will just be taking my own advice and embracing being little on my own. 

 

If anyone needs me, Ill be in my blanket Fort...

Evangeline XoXo

[Guest]

I am sorry things didn't work out for you.

 

I wanted to say you are handling things so well though. Many others I have seen act like they are useless with out a daddy in Thier life. It's nice to see someone level headed enough to know it's not the end of the world even though it's the end of a relationship. You are on the right path! You got this. You rock!

 

Good luck with your dog and enjoy the blanket fort!!!

[stargirl]

You are always enough

[Daddy's_Babygirl]

Oh Dolly...

 

We really didn't talk much, but I enjoyed reading your posts and about you and Dominus. I am sorry things didn't work out and can see why it would be hard. If you need to talk, we're all here. If you want left alone, we can do that too.

[Guest LittleLexiKitty]

Were all here for you :3 you is so big and brave to continue going and ik so proud of you for being a big girl and continuing to go forward instead of stopping :3 im always here if u need a fwiend (:

[Tasha-Pasha]

*sends chocolate, and stuffies, and juice, and colouring books into the blanket fort*

 

We are here for you however you need support through this time!

[Guest littlevulcangirl]

*hugs*

[KumihoDoll]

I'm sorry to hear what you are going through.

Everyone deals with things differently, so if you need to rock out in a blanket fort, do it.

If you need to cry to a sappy movie, do it.

I usually take a million naps, but that's just what helps me personally.

 

I hope things will feel better one day soon, and if not, keep your chin up.

It might be hard, but it seems you have a good head on your shoulders not letting this bring you to rock bottom.

Sending all my hugs.

c:

[Lil' Miss Dolly]

Thanks for all the kind words and support.

 

It's hard not to be realistic in situations like these considering a lot of it had to so with my own actions. Due to an insane amount of stress (my dad is dying and I am going through a bit of a health crisis to name a few things) I am not myself. Dominus has caught the brunt of it because I am not dealing with my emotions like a grown up. I am lashing out and throwing crap like a 3 year old. No one deserves to live through that - I understand that.

[Daddy's_Babygirl]

Thanks for all the kind words and support.

 

It's hard not to be realistic in situations like these considering a lot of it had to so with my own actions. Due to an insane amount of stress (my dad is dying and I am going through a bit of a health crisis to name a few things) I am not myself. Dominus has caught the brunt of it because I am not dealing with my emotions like a grown up. I am lashing out and throwing crap like a 3 year old. No one deserves to live through that - I understand that.

Ummm so.... this is still hard for me to talk about sometimes so please bear with me.

 

I lost my dad when I was 15... it's been almost 8yrs... he raised me, but wasn't my bio dad. He came into my life when I was 1 and was there ever since. His death was absolutely the hardest thing I ever had to deal with, so I guess I can kinda relate?

 

My best friend was the closest person other than my mom at the time and lord I was mean to her. I truthfully don't know how we remained friends. I was hurting sooo horribly bad and who could I talk to? Bad experience with counseling due to some previous pain made me fearful of counselors, my mother had lost her husband her best friend her lover her soulmate I couldn't upset her with my feelings, and my brothers and I were... distant, at best. At 15 I'd lost something long before I was prepared to and I took it out in anger, so I get it...

 

I guess what I'm trying to get at is... the only good thing that came from that situation is my ability to better understand and relate to others going through similar situations... it helps me heal, and I like to think it helps them a little, too....

 

I have social anxiety, so this is the closest I'll get to "starting a conversation on my own"... I don't feel I can help you much with your breakup, as I've only ever been through one... but if you need help with talking about your dad, I'm here... if you don't want to talk about it, I understand that, too.

[roseyposey]

Aw, I'm sorry. I enjoyed reading your posts as well. Sounds like you know what to do to take care of yourself, so just hang in there. *hands you a plate of cookies*