Strawberry Sprinkles Posted November 4, 2016 Report Posted November 4, 2016 (edited) I'm very open about my depression, in my personal life and in the forums. Lately, my depression has kicked me in the gut. That being said, I've had a horrible week at work. Majority of the infants I care for are sick for one reason or another and I feel as if it's my fault. The boyfriend has been planning a trip that I've been dreading. Whenever he goes on to trips, I'm always miserable. Despite not wanting him to go, I've encouraged the trip as it will be the last time he'll be able to see some of his friends. I know it's good to have time apart. However, he knows about my week and how his trips in the past has ended, so he's tried to cancel it. I insisted I would be okay and that this trip will be good for him to get some closure. He and the guys are going to compete against one another in a gaming tournament for the last time. After a time, he told me he would go if I promised to build a support group and call him if I think of silly things (invasive thoughts and that nonsense). I always feel awful because I worry that I'm guilt tripping him. I try to keep quiet my feelings which leads to him being upset when he reads past it. He's awfully good at reading people and I have a horrible pokerface. It's a bad combination. He hasn't left yet and I'm already feeling the disconnect. I've come up with a list of things to help keep me distracted while he's gone: Skyrim Coloring Cartoons Minecraft Building a list of bedtime stories for him to read. What are some of the things you do when your significant other is away? Edited November 4, 2016 by Strawberry Sprinkles
aj_21 Posted November 4, 2016 Report Posted November 4, 2016 (edited) - going for walks...getting out in the fresh helps lift spirits -tv/movies - reading - nails/experiment with make up - cleaning...i have a thing for cleaning - meditation and practicing mindfulness On a side note. Ive had depression in the past and lately I have kinda felt myself slipping back. Something that the doctor reccomended was a blood test. It showed that my vitamin d, omega 3, b12 and iron were all extremly low. This can actually cause you to feel really low. Im not suggesting this could be a factor in your case but maybe talking to your doctor and trying some supplments may help you feel a bit better. And hon those kidlets being sick is absolutely not your fault at all!!! If anything its the kids making each other sick definitely not you!! If you need someone to chat to dont hesitate to msg me hon. Depression is shit but you can kick its butt!! Edited November 4, 2016 by aj_21 2
Strawberry Sprinkles Posted November 4, 2016 Author Report Posted November 4, 2016 On 11/4/2016 at 5:08 AM, aj_21 said: - going for walks...getting out in the fresh helps lift spirits -tv/movies - reading - nails/experiment with make up - cleaning...i have a thing for cleaning - meditation and practicing mindfulness On a side note. Ive had depression in the past and lately I have kinda felt myself slipping back. Something that the doctor reccomended was a blood test. It showed that my vitamin d, omega 3, b12 and iron were all extremly low. This can actually cause you to feel really low. Im not suggesting this could be a factor in your case but maybe talking to your doctor and trying some supplments may help you feel a bit better. And hon those kidlets being sick is absolutely not your fault at all!!! If anything its the kids making each other sick definitely not you!! If you need someone to chat to dont hesitate to msg me hon. Depression is shit but you can kick its butt!! I have "Major Depressive Disorder" which is a fancy way of saying clinical depression. I have medicine to take, but it keeps me feeling icky. While I never sink far below the "acceptable" threshold, I have a hard time being happy on the medicine too. So you're not off the mark! heh. I think I could use some time at the park for that good old Vitamin D. I have had an orange juice craving too.... I really appreciate this suggestion. Sometimes I forget to look at my body/health to see what could be triggering it. Thank you for reassuring me about my children. As a daycare worker, I spend majority of my day with them. The thought of them being sick makes me sad. When I learned five out of eight of them were sick and I was the cause, I just kinda sat down behind the changing table and cried while my co-worker feed one of them and watched the room. It was not a fun day, coupled with a wisdom tooth infection and a worsening cold. :/ 1
Strawberry Sprinkles Posted November 4, 2016 Author Report Posted November 4, 2016 On 11/4/2016 at 12:47 PM, Tasha-Pasha said: Oh StrawberrySprinkles You are definitely not alone in struggling with depression! First, you are doing so good in coming up with ways to keep yourself busy while your boyfriend is away! Secondly, good for you in encouraging him to go on this planned trip even though you are feeling especially down. We are more than our feelings! My first suggestion for a way to keep busy is to make your boyfriend something while he is away. An art project? A card? It is hard to feel depressed when we are using the creative parts of our brain. I noticed in your list that you don't have anything on there in regards to being with friends even though your boyfriend specifically asked about you getting a support team together. Do you have friends irl that you can call if you are feeling particularly down while he is away? Have you reached out to others on this site? This is a large community of caring and loving people, I am sure you could find some other littles to talk to on and off line. Feel free to send me a friend request! I'm a little and I love playing make believe Whatever you decide I hope you are safe while your boyfriend is away! Thank you. It was really hard not to. Up until the last minute, I was mentally begging him to not go. Now it's two hours before he has to leave, and I'm trying to stay positive. I really like your suggestion to make him something. I might do an art project! He's a huge nerd and a new Final Fantasy game is coming out. I might look at some related crafts or coloring pages. I rrreaalllyyy like this suggestion. I'm kind of excited to surprise him with something. You're a smart cookie, heh. I don't really do well with people. While I am sociable, I don't go out of my way to hang out with others. I offered to babysit one of my infants at the daycare, but that's because babies are adorable and he's the sweetest kid. I do have a friend from DDlgForums, but I'm pretty bad at keeping a steady flow of messages. I feel a little guilty about it. Make believe sounds super fun! Sometimes I pretend I'm a cat, a puppy, or a dinosaur. Or a mermaid when I'm swimming!
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