I'm an Idiot xD

[Guest *Aurora*]

Few days ago I made a post about where I go from here in the DDLG lifestyle. I got a lot of great advice from different voices and just wanted to thank everyone who took the time to read and respond. It was very insightful and needed, actually made me feel at peace. I read what I posted and the responses multiple times and realized slowly...how ridiculous and lost I sounded . I was rushing and looking for a quick straight forward solution for something that has a million different answers and is different for every individual.

 

I took a couple days away to research, finding what applied to me and what didn't. Did some reflecting of myself, my tendencies, what made me happy, what pulls me into DDlg, and actually deciding to be okay with it.

 

LittleKittenKo was right, it was almost like "aha!" But for me it was like "*facepalm* duh you stupid idiot! This is you! This is your little space! Why are you overthinking this?? You've been doing this for years!" To finally come to a glimpse of an understanding and to be able to put a label on it actually helps I guess.

 

I'm not saying I understand everything 100%, it'll take years of learning. But I think it's a step further in the right direction for me. ^-^

Edited October 21, 2016 by *Aurora*

[LoralieHaze]

Awww, you're not an idiot. This stuff can be complicated and so can our feelings about it. Like I said before, it took me years to be able to confront it, even though it had been on my mind ever since I had (prematurely) hit puberty.

 

It might seem strange that I'm saying this but I actually think it's great that you're doing some soul-searching. I see tons of people, usually teenagers, come on here and treat DDlg like it's a game or a style of clothing. Yes, it is fun and playful, but it's also serious, and not something to be taken lightly or used as a fad. I have a great amount of respect for people who think critically about if this lifestyle is right for them, rather than just trying it on like a Halloween costume.

 

I'm glad that I could help .

[Daddy's_Babygirl]

You're not an idiot! I'm new to this, too. I remember even as far back as middle school that I've wanted people to tell me what to do, in a loving way. I remember when my friend in middle school, who was a guy, would be concerned because I didn't eat lunch at school. I remember how it made me feel.

 

I remember when Daddy and I started an "in the bedroom only" Dom/sub relationship. We were already married. He had tied me up a handful of times, but that was the most adventurous our sex life had been thus far. I remember thinking then how I would like it all the time, but that it would never, ever happen because "it was wrong".

 

Then I remember thinking I wanted it full time, and the anxiety I faced with telling Daddy. I also remember researching it. I remember finding a DDlg blog and it seemed right for our relationship, right for Daddy, but wrong for me. I didn't feel like the little described there. I did some research, heard about middles some, but not enough to understand it.

 

That's when I found this site and posted a post similar to yours. And that's when I found out I was probably a middle and felt stupid myself.

 

I've accepted that I don't know it all, I'm still learning, and I may never know everything there is to know about it. But I don't want it for a fad or a temporary thing. My relationship is so so much better since I discovered this and I need this to be a part of my permanent life.

[Guest *Aurora*]

Awww, you're not an idiot. This stuff can be complicated and so can our feelings about it. Like I said before, it took me years to be able to confront it, even though it had been on my mind ever since I had (prematurely) hit puberty.

 

It might seem strange that I'm saying this but I actually think it's great that you're doing some soul-searching. I see tons of people, usually teenagers, come on here and treat DDlg like it's a game or a style of clothing. Yes, it is fun and playful, but it's also serious, and not something to be taken lightly or used as a fad. I have a great amount of respect for people who think critically about if this lifestyle is right for them, rather than just trying it on like a Halloween costume.

 

I'm glad that I could help .

 

Thanks I can't say I've had the greatest examples of littles and middles when I first tried talking about it with others on kik a while ago. I did find a couple good people, but the others were mostly about 14-19 maybe and just...not what I wanted to be at all lol And these men indulging their behavior...  I couldn't understand their mentality of using this a joke or just an excuse to be insufferable or treat others certain ways. I just couldn't deal. So I'm really glad I found this site

[Guest *Aurora*]

You're not an idiot! I'm new to this, too. I remember even as far back as middle school that I've wanted people to tell me what to do, in a loving way. I remember when my friend in middle school, who was a guy, would be concerned because I didn't eat lunch at school. I remember how it made me feel.

 

I remember when Daddy and I started an "in the bedroom only" Dom/sub relationship. We were already married. He had tied me up a handful of times, but that was the most adventurous our sex life had been thus far. I remember thinking then how I would like it all the time, but that it would never, ever happen because "it was wrong".

 

Then I remember thinking I wanted it full time, and the anxiety I faced with telling Daddy. I also remember researching it. I remember finding a DDlg blog and it seemed right for our relationship, right for Daddy, but wrong for me. I didn't feel like the little described there. I did some research, heard about middles some, but not enough to understand it.

 

That's when I found this site and posted a post similar to yours. And that's when I found out I was probably a middle and felt stupid myself.

 

I've accepted that I don't know it all, I'm still learning, and I may never know everything there is to know about it. But I don't want it for a fad or a temporary thing. My relationship is so so much better since I discovered this and I need this to be a part of my permanent life.

 

Ha nice to feel not alone in this It really is a lot to take in but I'm learning to go at my own pace and I think I'm in a better space than a couple days ago. It's a looooong journey apparently, which is totally okay.

 

I'm happy for you and your Daddy! Hope for nothing but the best for you two! ^-^