Keep going or just end it

[Guest ScarletBlue]

I swear every time i log on here I just get depressed. I dont know why. I guess i was hoping for something to happen when i joined. But I am starting to think that maybe ddlg should just be my daydream fantasy. I keep feel like im serching for somehitng that is not real. So maybe i should just take a step back and.............some how get a life. I miss having that friend that you can be 100% honest with. But Im kinda a selfish person so when im with my friend or texting my friend i only want it to be us. I know I know thats wrong. I might try to go back to writing and i was thinking of writing a story for the app "Episode" i might make it a ddlg story even tho i dont know much about this life anymore. jsut what i read. I would like to get it a try in real like or at leaset have a teacher but maybe its not for me.

 

I miss being honest. I miss being feel wanted.

later people.

[Beasourous]

i guess you are not alone in thinking that way. Wanting to be that special friend that the person is only talking to or even having that special bond. It takes times and effort to create that bond. Im sure you will find that friend who will create that special friendship who will make you feel special and wanted. 

[Guest SifuTheWolf]

Keep going!!! I am a firm believer there is someone out there that is the right fit for everyone, you are already ahead of most people in that you know what you want

[Nice_Daddy]

You have to keep going, but know that this is not an easy road. Just finding that special someone in a vanilla relationship is hard enough. Add onto that the DD/lg aspect and the task becomes harder. I'm not saying this to depress you or scare you off, only to let you know that this search is hard on almost all of us. On both sides of the dynamic. But when it does work it is definitely worth all of the time spent searching. Keep yourself busy with your projects and try to enjoy the journey.

 

I wish you all the best and hope that you find what you are looking for soon.

[Baby_squirrel]

Chin up miss missy. I think you should stick with it. I am much the same way and know how you feel. I need individual attention and focus because it is what I desire to give the one person I hold as special. Some of us are just this way. I wouldn't call it being selfish.

 

Keep going because if you stop now you'll be denying yourself that chance to connect with others and find the type of relationship you want. Also, you may find an alternative - a person who may be in contact with others, but makes you seem like you are the center of their world when he/she focuses on you. Im greedy and doon like that alternative, just putting it out there.

[Thequeen]

Alright guys since we are all on here talking about that special person you focus on completely. How do we balance it? I was going to start a discussion about it asking for help but figured you all are already on this topic.

 

I completely focus on my little when I'm with him but in doing so I've hurt one of my only friends because she wants my attention. So I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt her or anything like that but I really do feel like I am allowed to only give my attention to him and I shouldn't have to message her. But I understand why it would hurt her to hear it. So should I still keep with what all you guys are saying? Stick to what I want, don't deny myself the happiness I seek? Or should I focus on the friend too to save her own happiness and feelings like she too deserves to have?