CrazyLittleBuggaBoo Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 Today... Today I found out, that my dog has cancer... He's an old dog... We've had him scents he was a puppy... Actually we saved him. The people who had him before us were, lets say really freaken bad at giving a springy about caring for their animals. He was a teny tiny little thing! Just sooo tiny, he'd run under the coffee table, like the bottom wooden part that holds the legs together. But he's a big old dog now. He's always been very hyper and bouncy... So I'm almost sure he's had a very happy life(in his eyes as well) Like I said, he's old. Like 13years old. He's really one hellofa trooper. I mean, even just about a month ago he was horse playing around. He didn't show any signs of pain or sickness.((sadly this is not the first time a dog has died of cancer)) He still eats and all. There's really nothing we can do for him. He is 13years old. And the vet said most of the (upper)bone in his one back leg is gone... The only thing we can do... is... well, you know... He is old, and he has had a long doggie life... I know, but I am very sad...
Guest QueenJellybean Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 I'm so, so sorry to hear about your dog. Having a sick pet is really difficult and painful. I remember when my cat was ill, I felt terrible too. Try to remember all those good members that you've started telling us about, and enjoy the time you have with him still. He sounds like he has been having a wonderful life with you, and I'm sure he knows how much he is loved. He sounds like an amazing animal, and a great friend. <3 If you ever need to talk, I'm only a message away.
LittlePrincessofDaddys Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 *hug* I'm sorry to hear about this. if there's anything that i can do I will do.
Guest Prat Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 I'm really sorry, I lost my puppy to cancer too :/
CrazyLittleBuggaBoo Posted October 4, 2016 Author Report Posted October 4, 2016 Thank you guys. I'm just so very sad. I don't really feel like much of anything... I can home from work and just hugged him until it was time to get Mister Master from work... Then came back and just hugged him some more. My mom(my actual mother) made me read these two prayers, she says always helps her. She made me read them out loud. Honestly nothing felt more hallow. Not because I don't believe in the bible and god or whatever(which I do, but it's very much my own idea on things, but that's not important)... It's just weird... It's kinda like I had actually convinced myself he was going to here with me forever. He is very puppy-ish ((there is no doubt if he was a person he'd be a little lol)) Like we'd both just always be here... Deep down I know that's fake, and everyone does, but we all kinda tell ourselves that... Reality. The reality of it all, that's what makes it really hurt. It's reality and there isn't anything I can do.
Guest littleontariogirl Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 I am very sorry *sending happy thoughts and hugs*
Guest Princessaj Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 I am sending you butterflies to wipe your tears. If you haven't been already, may I suggest that you take lots of pictures and video. You can make a tumblr all about him and you can visit him any time you want to. I am so sorry. 1
sugaaar Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 aw I hope you're okay, probably you aren't. but my condolences, sorry for your doggy. I know that having to watch a pet suffer is a really hard thing to , my cat got urinary tract infection and couldn't breath etc, he would just lay down in my room and have a hard time breathing, I couldn't do anything just watch him suffer. luckily he's okay now. but still i'm sorry.
Eris Posted October 4, 2016 Report Posted October 4, 2016 *hugs* I'm sorry to hear that, I know what it means to have a sick dog and to see him/her die. I hope you will remember all the good time you had with him and that you treasure every last moment together. I wish (and I'm shure the others feel the same) I could hug you in real life to give you a little support for the hard time you have.
a_cuddle_tiger Posted October 5, 2016 Report Posted October 5, 2016 I am very sorry to hear about your dog. It is very hard to deal with losing someone who has been with you for so long. I believe there is a higher existence or reincarnation I will not know which till I see first hand but I believe it applies to all life. Be thankful for the moments you still have and realize you did everything you could.
Lil' Miss Dolly Posted October 5, 2016 Report Posted October 5, 2016 This hits me in the feels:( I have 2 dogs myself (Aesa is a pitbull and Harley Quinn is a terrier) and they are honestly like my children. I am a dog mom of the worst kind - they get birthday parties and Xmas presents etc. Our pets become such a regular part of our lives and we sometimes forget that one day they aren't going to be there and it's heartbreaking. You are definitely in my thoughts and if you need to scream or cry you have a board full of people who will gladly hold you up while you do so. A human being spends their entire life trying to find the meaning of it all and to learn unconditional love. We need the 65+ years to learn this. A dog is born with a pure heart and knows love on a level we can never understand - that's why they only get 10-15 yrs; they have very little to learn. We are their whole lives - they don't need to know the meaning of it all.... we are their "All" Find comfort in knowing that you enabled him to love endlessly and live a full life like he was created to do. 1
CrazyLittleBuggaBoo Posted October 5, 2016 Author Report Posted October 5, 2016 Thank you so much guys. You're all really helping me a lot... I struggle with pretty severe depression...((I don't have any meds, cause well I don't like doctors. All kinds of doctors... they just make me unconfortable and uneasy. And have kinda have prombles with having to pay someone to listen to you, along with other things)) And my Mom and Mister Master and pretty worried about me and this... He has bone cancer, and sadly he's going to be put to sleep soon... Like... within the next week or two. Mom's going to set it up on a Friday, so we have all weekend with nothing like work to worry about. BUT My works ((forgive me)) assholes. My Mom (how happens to also be my superviser) called our Superviser or boss lady whatever, to let her know what's up and that she'll need to find someone to cover us on ONE day, whatever Friday she sets up the appointment for... SHE THREATENED MY JOB!!! Said if I don't go in, it will probably be my job. My Mom is free to to have the day off, but because I'm just under fulltime they are threatening to fire me. When they can't keep good worker!!! My Mom and I where the other cleaners willing to help cover for another cleaner who was off for over a whole month!(And that person ended up quting anyway!) I helped cover even thou I told her that I couldn't clean my own area properly and help cover. And for the whole month nothing but complains about how we wheren't cleaning everything properly... Even thou no one bothered to show or tell us what needed done... And now the ((Please forget me)) fucking bitch won't give me one day off for my dying dog!!! My Mom reminded her that, when no one else would, I stepped up and helped out and that she said she owed us one. All she could say, is that she'd see... I mean come on. I already knew it could be my job, but that is just NOT something you say to someone! Not when my dog of 13 years is being put to sleep, not when I went out of my way(WORKING TWO JOBS) to help cover, not when an other worker misses literally almost ever week and says they will do something then never show without calling or telling anyone. Sometimes they miss and never call at all. But I can't have one day. Just one freaken day... So I'm losing my dog, and now I might be losing my job. I just can't believe it.
Eris Posted October 5, 2016 Report Posted October 5, 2016 Oh no Some people don't understand how we pet lovers feel when our loved ones must go. I hope for you that you don't loose your job, that would be very cruel (and maybe against the law). If it comes to that (and I hope it doesn't) you should talk with a lawyer about it. I will think of you at friday. If you need help you can post here or come into the chat to talk to us.
CrazyLittleBuggaBoo Posted October 5, 2016 Author Report Posted October 5, 2016 I'm just under fulltime hours, so I don't get to have presonal or vatcation days. If they really want to take my job, they can have it. I'm just now all kinds of upset and mixed up... The manners on some people.
CrazyLittleBuggaBoo Posted October 7, 2016 Author Report Posted October 7, 2016 My dogs... uuum... Departure day, has been set for the 14th((Yeah, next friday :<)) Work did finally break down and give me the day off. Only after being told repetedly that I wasn't going to be there weather they gave it to me or not. However, there was a lot of crap about it, and strings... They got that one worker, that's not very good and doesn't even show up half the time, to cover for me. She doesn't actually have to do anything. Just take out trash. So on Monday, I'll have a really huge mess to clean up and probably some complants about things not being done... But whatever, I don't much care right now. I'm so very mad about so many things right now. Like my mother already talking about getting a puppy of the same bread of this dog. Poor thing hasn't even left us yet, and she's already thinking about replacement. Not that you can replace him... But whatever on that too... I don't really know what to do... I feel soo lost and so mad, and so many mixed up emotions... Does anyone have depression? I've been trying so hard to keep it together and stay strong... But I'm not doing so good, and I don't want to make it harder on other because of my depression issues... Can anyone help me? How can I keep control of my crazy depression issues and not make it harder on everyone else? I know, I actually have the right to be sad this time. But me being a depressed mess... that's bad for everyone. Exspecialy my doggie...
roseyposey Posted October 7, 2016 Report Posted October 7, 2016 When you're depressed you shouldn't worry about making it hard on others. If they care about you, they'd want to know. When I'm feeling down, I journal, vent to a trusted friend (or three haha), pamper myself (mani/pedi, facial, massage), watch a bunch of favorite movies and read lots of books. I hope you feel better ((hugs))
CrazyLittleBuggaBoo Posted October 8, 2016 Author Report Posted October 8, 2016 When you're depressed you shouldn't worry about making it hard on others. If they care about you, they'd want to know. When I'm feeling down, I journal, vent to a trusted friend (or three haha), pamper myself (mani/pedi, facial, massage), watch a bunch of favorite movies and read lots of books. I hope you feel better ((hugs)) I do agree with you, and they do care and want to know. My only thing is, that they are also grieving... and while I am too, I don't not want to grieve... I just don't want to be crazy depressed and made grieving harder on everyone... I want to be able to help support them while they are helping support me thour this time. Thank very much for your ideas. Journal sounds like a pretty good idea... and pampering sounds nice, buying stuff is nice...
Eris Posted October 8, 2016 Report Posted October 8, 2016 I know how you feel with the replacing. My mother did the same thing because it was her way to deal with the situation. She didn't wanted to hurt my but it did. Now after two years I can understand her but at that time it made me mad and made the bad feelings soo much stronger. I know that your feelings are overwhelming you but remember your mother doen't want to hurt you. I don't say you have to understand her yet, just remember that she loves you. You should let your feelings out. I know that feeling/need to be the strong one, to support the others and don't show the "weakness" of being really down, but if you don't show them, don't allow you to really feel that they only become stronger. So you have all the right to cry, scream or show any other feeling, even when you have to laugh hysterically (like I did). And maybe in the future, when a bit time has past, you can have a new dog. Not as a replacement but a new friend to help you with your feelings,
CrazyLittleBuggaBoo Posted October 14, 2016 Author Report Posted October 14, 2016 Today's departure day... My dog will be crossing over the rainbow bridge... I feel at a total lose... I just don't know what to do with myself. He's still with us til 2... I feel like I'm sinking in a stormy sea... 1
Little_Smurf Posted October 14, 2016 Report Posted October 14, 2016 Hey, I just wanted to wish you loads and loads of strength. I'm a husky mum of two and I just wouldn't know what to do if this happened to one of my boys. You don't know me or at least don't know me very well but I just wanted to say that you can always talk to me if you want to do so. I'll be there X Smurf 1
Little_Smurf Posted October 14, 2016 Report Posted October 14, 2016 Hey, I just wanted to wish you loads and loads of strength. I'm a husky mum of two and I just wouldn't know what to do if this happened to one of my boys. You don't know me or at least don't know me very well but I just wanted to say that you can always talk to me if you want to do so. I'll be there X Smurf
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