I think I made a mistake

[Guest MissNMTX]

Hi everyone. I'm still new here, but I'm hoping this place can help me out as I explore this part of myself. As it says in my intro, I was introduced to DD/lg from a Dom who isn't a true Daddy. I loved it. It opened something in me that's more carefree and happy. In my "real" life I'm very serious and independent. I've even been told I'm an alpha fem,ale, which I think is just..silly. I loved the affection, care and protection that I got That is what I NEED! This Dom recognized the little in me...I think I'm probably by definition a middle, and let me enter the world. Told me to "trust and follow Daddy" Of course Since he's not a true Daddy. I believe that he began to chaff under the needier side of being a little. He won't confirm or deny this for me. but he definitely pulled away from me...This is all long distance.

 

Because, I'm new and I guess truly little, I threw a tantrum. As in I broke ALL the rules! Even then it took him over 24 hrs to call me on it. I no longer call him Daddy and I'm not little with him anymore. I hate it!! I really thought it was just a change in terms and that he's the same person regardless. Even though I knew from all my study this wasn't true!  He's not the same person at all. There's no more warmth or kindness, no more affection. Its cold and mean. Not to mention, I don't physically respond the same at all...not at all!

 

I think the worst part is, he really won't talk to me about it. I've asked him if there was any compromises we could make. I told him I'd be fine with a strict Daddy or a Daddy wolf. I said the dynamics were our own and we could make it whatever we wanted. I got nothing! Even when I tell him I've cried! This man saw something in me I didn't even know was there. I didn't know that's how I came across, but I feel tricked. I feel like its the worst kind of sadism ever, he offered me something He knew he couldn't give me.

 

Sorry,this is so long, I had to vent to someone who might talk back to me and there's no one else to talk to about it.

[Guest littleontariogirl]

I understand completely what you are going through.  My ex did the same thing to be but one day decided to let me know that it wasn't what he wanted and up and left.  I am sorry that you are having such mixed emotions about the situation.  It definitely plays a toll of your mind.  If you would like someone to talk to feel free to add me and we can chat.

[Petal]

Oh my days that's horrible... ;_; 

 

I don't have a lot of advice... but I don't think you did anything wrong.  You are trying to make compromises, but you won't give up a part of you that you've found, that you love.  And I think that's super admirable.

 

You'll find the person that's right for you.  Who will treat you right.  You will!

[Littleharleyq]

Hugs!!!

[Guest MissNMTX]

Thank you ladies for the support. It means alot considering I'm so new. At least I know I'm not crazy.

[kissingkitten]

~huggles to you~

[ConstantMouth951]

I have been there (exactly the same a little over a year ago) and it is so frustrating. You have this newly awakened need, and to have him just drop you like that is devastating.

 

It's hard to let the one who awakens your little go. Part of ur little will always belong to him. But you can't make compromises sometimes. Neither of you would be satisfied. He isn't the kinda of daddy ur little needs if when you tested him (with rule breaking and tantrums) he didn't respond in a timely manner. He wasn't ready for that.

 

Good knews... You will get through it. Keep looking, take ur time. You will find a daddy that will help you find ur little space and nurture and grow that in you.

 

Good luck

[Simon.dd4lg]

Totally agree with petal. If it means so much to u, he is not right for u. Someone is tho so don't give up hope. U will find your daddy

[Guest Prat]

You haven't made a mistake. The Dom wanted a little, he found you, he found the little inside you and brought her to the light, he wasn't ready to fully commit to a little that's still trying to develop herself so he pulled away. It's no ones fault, it happens. If it's anyones mistake it's the Doms, he wasn't ready for a needy little girl. Learn from this experience, don't let it stop you from being who you are, that would be the only mistake here.

[Deimos420]

Just wanted to say sorry to hear I have had it other way learned was dd from a sub non little who left me for being to loving she wanted cold degrading things that were beyond my limits and didn't know to tell me I was dd just told me your no master and was gone took me long time to come back to it was with a vanilla a decade but we are what we are. And we deserve a partner who loves you for exactly that