I feel like I have no place in my marriage :(

[Littletiger420]

My husband and I started our relationship with 100% honesty and have continued that way well. He loves me and hes amazing. Its just that in trying to find his Daddy (he knew I was little when we began dating as I dont know how not to be and was open about that) he found out he was little too. So its like he wants to be big and he wants to be little, which I can kind of relate to, but like.... then when we fight he freaks about how he can never be the Daddy I need and insulted a Daddy I had who was awesome and never did anything wrong, whom I dont even talk to anymore. Like I dont even know how to explain this all... but he like still encourages me to be little but even tho my heart is little I cant physically act on being little, like shit man, I dont even know. I just don't wanna do the stuff. I found a dope ass pacci in my house today and was like OMG! Then just put it away and my heart kinda broke. I know it hurts him when I cant, essentially, be me, but Im scared to be little and scared to have it thrown in my face again. I am guilt tripped almost for sharing my needs, I feel so needy and I try to do everything for myself and every time I try to do something for myself I feel my heart break. I feel like I recently became more comfy being me, and now Im being shut down. I wouldnt have been comfy enough to say I like a pacci even anonymously a month ago, or to use this poor of language and say comfy, like I was so scared to be little until recently because of how I was raised that now I feel like, rejected. I love my husband but I dont know how to fix it, Im heart broken.

[Princess Joe Joe]

Perhaps find a dom/domme who could act as babysitter. You could even regress with your husband! The babysitting relationship could be totally platonic and even long distance. (: just a suggestion

[Princess-P]

Unless I'm mistaken what your saying is he gets upset because he can't be like this Daddy you had in the past. Which to me sounds like you've compared him to this other man at some point. Its not that he's tossing being little in your face or asking you not to be yourself.

 

So what if your husband wants to be a little too? Your both adults. You can both be whatever you choose. Him being little doesn't mean you have to play mommy or be a switch... You can just both be little. Taking the CG/l dynamic out of it your still both adults in an adult marriage who chose to get married for more reasons then a kink.

 

Don't put pressure on him to be something he's not. And don't feel like you can't be who you are without a Daddy. He's probably feeling the same way, like his desire to be little is being rejected because you want him to play at being Daddy and he just can't fulfill that role the way you expect.

 

Drop this whole ideal that this other man/former Daddy was great. Your husband isn't going to be the same and yet he's the one you married and, assuming, love. Let him know his little side is welcome. Embrace it, encourage it, invite him to participate in little activities you enjoy and not as your Daddy but as an equal. Relationships are two sided. If he feels rejected then your going to feel it too.