Identity Crisis of a Traumatized Little

[Guest ProfessionalCryBaby]

hi! sooooo, last night I came to terms with the fact that I'm a little. With that came the realization that I had been a total asshole to several people including a good because they either were a CG and/or a little. I had a really hard time dealing with this particular kink because I'm a survivor of childhood sexual abuse as well as rape and other abusive situations that happened throughout my childhood and early adulthood. I'd also had a friend who was in an abusive situation with a Daddy Dom that end with that friend being raped on several occasions. I saw this and ran in the opposite direction when I realized I had this kink. I guess I was ashamed that this was something I enjoyed, especially after having partners that were very NOT into that and freaked out when I "jokingly" called them daddy. Over the past week or so I've had a full identity crisis that led me here.

 

I put the LGBT and xqueer tags because I'm hoping to hear from the experiences of queer CG and littles. 

 

                   Thank you for reading!                   

[Guest LavanderRabbit]

https://www.ddlgforum.com/topic/9736-tw-any-littles-sexually-abused-as-a-child-by-a-father-figure/?p=54913

That is part of my abuse story. I have never had an identity crisis with DD/lg. It's a little hard to accept at first. You don't have to adhere to all the stereotypical things to be a little. Your little space also doesn't have to be sexual in the slightest. I use my little space as a method to cope while my middle side is the more sexual side. I still get uncomfortable with some things people talk about, but most of the hatred is because of misinformation or not enough information on the subject. A lot of people who spread so much hate are susceptible to wanting to be in it and can't accept it. I'm glad you have decided to join and be more open than a crude asshat that refuses to learn about it.

 

As for the abusive "Daddy Dom", in every community there are always those that don't know what they are doing and just manipulate others in order to get something they want. I'm sorry to hear that your friend had to go through that. There are a few bad eggs in every batch. If you feel unsure about a person, feel free to ask a second opinion. The community here is very open and loving.

[Guest ProfessionalCryBaby]

thank you for sharing that with me. I'm sorry for the comments on another post where I may have come off as an a** or a jerk. Mine wasn't by a father figure, the person was my friend's dad I think and I don't remember a lot of it. I think a lot of my anger and fear came from not understanding and being an CSA survivor and that absolutely doesn't condone my actions in any way shape or form. I have a friend I'm close to who is a little who I'll be talking to more about this. But I agree with the loss of childhood part and wanting that back. I guess I was afraid people wouldn't understand, sorry, I'm rambling, I'm just super appreciative you reached out to me. thank you <3. I know you probably don't want to, but you can add me if you'd like, I'll leave that up to you

[Lil' Miss Dolly]

When I am adulting.. I'm a Social Worker as most of the members here know. 

 

Its common for someone who is unsure of their own Identity to lash out or judge something unfairly because they just don't understand where they "fit in" to it all. Obviously its still less than an Ideal way to deal with your crap - Its not uncommon. 

 

It was very brave of you to "come out" publicly even after you have been so vocal against DDlg. 

 

I have never in my life had to deal with CSA, I have never been raped, I had a great childhood and I love my father to pieces so if anyone feels the need to assume CSA, Incest, rape etc etc etc leads to this life.. I am more than happy to educate them. 

 

As Lavender as said.. Theres really no set in stone way to be a Little - it's more of an internal thing - Its how you feel, react and respond. I am 31 years old.. In my head.. I'm around 8 (Unless I am working). 

 

I know the struggle of coming to terms with this. When I came to this realization.. I was up to my neck in Psych textbooks... trying to figure out where my life went off the rails - because the media tells us all people who live like this are unhinged... after months of "Oh my god, I'm a pervert" and a lot of research and education... I am now quite happy with being who and what I am.  Acceptance will come - Its a shock to the system. 

 

If this is who you truly believe you are... than Welcome to the Playhouse! 

Please keep your hands, feets and stuffies inside the ride at all times

DDlg Forum is not responsible for loss of Maturity or an unhealthy obsession with Princesses <3