Afraid about Daddy

[sirenaophelia]

Scared my Daddy is second guessing about me... getting sick of me or annoyed or irritated or... yeah.

 

I'm so afraid I'm going to lose him. Lately he's been short with me... especially today. I try to do everything I can as much as I can to please him and try not to shake the boat...

 

I'm afraid to be without him... not just without a Daddy but without him. I feel he's trying to back off or wanting to back off.

 

I'm really depressed and want to drink or smoke weed to deal but I can't turn to that... So I'm just smoking more cigarettes. I think and feel I'm not exactly all he wants and he wants more and that I just... am not what he wants anymore. Help... Please... advice...anytrhing!

[Princess-P]

It sucks to feel that way. But I see that your relationship is long term and your engaged. I think that the only thing to do is tell him how you feel.

 

Since this isnt a new and fleeting relationship I'm sure you can communicate properly and aren't afraid to voice your feelings.

 

There may be something g going on with him that has nothing to so with you. Just ask.

[Osah]

Well now wouldnt you be the one second guessing him?

[Guest Mad.Max.1080]

Hope everything gets better, maybe your daddy is just busy or something, dont be so hard on yourself. If he is with you is because he loves you the way you are, so dont be sad

[Guest Kitty xx]

Aww bab you really should talk to him, try to make him understand how you're feeling and try to figure things out.. dont turn to other substances it really won't help..talk to him. .I really hope everything goes well for you ^^

[Sixtytwofifty]

Babygirl... you have to realize that in any relationship there are good and bad things that happen.

There will always be speedbumps, tests, and life lessons.

 

I know you have a very limited experience in relationships of any kind, much less one so powerful as we have, but, it is normal and expected that we will get frustrated with each other, annoyed, and even angry.

But even then it's normal, and doesn't mean we are breaking up.

 

If our ankle hurts, we don't cut off the leg... we try to find the source of the pain and cure it.

And when we can't cure it, we bandage it and care for it until we can.

And if we never can, we limp around together if needed.

 

You have a fear that if you ask me if I'm ok, it will perpetuate my issue and I will walk away from you... when in actuality it will make me appreciate you, and us, more.

 

At worse I will tell you we can talk later, but that I'm not mad at you.... then you'll know, "ok, it's not me", and you can relax.

 

As I said, it's normal for people to have moments of emotion, good and bad, with each other or against them... but it doesn't mean we are evaporating, slow or fast.

It's just part of life and human nature.

 

What do i always say?

Communication, communication, then talk about it.

 

It is normal, yes, but what we have is beyond this world.

Talk to me... ask me... tell me.

You will learn how more in time.... look at how far you've come... we've come.

 

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.... everything else passes quickly and disappears into hindsight.

That is how we learn as human-beans... experience.

 

I love you, I'm always here for you, even if I am angry, or worse.

And I'm not either one.

[Sixtytwofifty]

Thank you everyone for your support for us, and for my little one.

I can't thank you enough!

 

We also live in Dallas and as you probably know there was a lot going on last night that started after our thing did.

Please support innocent officers, and civilians everywhere.

[sirenaophelia]

Every one of yall have good advice...

 

And I never though *I* was the one second guessing Daddy. I have this huge huge huge fear of abandonment which I've gone through since being a kid. As Daddy said, I've never really had a real relationship not long distance... Until I met Daddy. He lives here in the area so we are together a lot..

 

Daddy, I'm sorry. I get so emotional and my thoughts just spiral me down. I'm so fragile, you know. Emotional and so easy to freak... I don't know how to control my emotions, especially when it comes to sadness... I love Daddy. I want no one or anything but him.

 

Daddy is wonderful... you are, Daddy. I guess I'm just so afraid of losing you... I get so paranoid. I know you're not like others that left me you're different it's just so hard to remember and think about. =_=

 

I love you and I;m sorry. You're... so wonderful.

 

Part of my problem is second guessing myself and not having self esteem good or good confidence... it makes it so much harder.

 

Thanks all that responded... <3

Edited July 9, 2016 by mermaidxsirena

[Sixtytwofifty]

No reason to ever be sorry with me lover.

 

Just breathe, and talk to me however you can.... as long as it's done.

[Lil' Miss Dolly]

Oh hunny you guys have something far beyond just a d/s dynamic.

 

Sixty doesn't strike me as the ostrich with his head buried type.. I'm sure if its serious he would tell you! Everyone has off days!

 

Smile that beautiful smile and know you're loved! A man doesn't (and i stress man- not boy) does not put so much effort into a relationship just to abandon the ship when it takes on a little water!

 

You guys are sooooooooo much stronger than that!! Silly Girl! <3